Most people in our group found it very readable. Some observed that the book has an interesting structure. The first part is classic White but he goes astray when the narrator changes person and he writes about things about which he knows less. However, one person really loved the second section where this happens. Some of this section echoes John Irving’s In One Person (and Irving does appear in the acknowledgements).
There’s a better study of obsession in Alan Holinghurst’s The Folding Star.
I enjoyed reading this book (twice) and it still amazes me how English attitudes are way ahead of those in America. I need reminding that many Americans come from small, remote, farms whereas the majority of brits now live in cities and so they encounter a wide variety of views.
Jack is a believable character. Because he doesn’t want to face up to his sexuality he keeps promising that he won’t ‘do it again’. He regards his sexuality as “a vice, a mental illness’. I like Jack and want to know what will happen to him and how things will turn out.
When Jack becomes promiscuous, his internalised homophobia makes him regard all hi8s partners as in some way less than normal, flawed. He can’t date anyone as this shows commitment and he wants to remain a libertine.
He confirms a hunch that many share – that gay men tend to have larger ‘equipment’ than straights because those so endowed get adulation from other men and they continue to seek this until it becomes habitual. Also that gay men give better head than women.
Is there meant to be a double-entendre in ‘Will was the cunning loser with his bland caginess, his refusal to take a stand.’?
Those who keep check of their stocks and shares will appreciate: “I write annual reports for corporations. They’re too paralyzed by bureaucracy to write them for themselves, so I have a freelance business—”
“But what are they?” Pia asked, sounding fastidious, as if she’d found a mouse paw in the compote.
Before I could answer, Jack said, “They’re these glossy pamphlets sent to the stockholders explaining why the company’s losses are a good thing. I get them at Newsweek all the time. The law forces companies to make a full disclosure, but these four-color photos and carefully worded bromides are designed to throw dust in everyone’s eyes.”
One reviewer asked it believable that Jack would spy on Will in the toilet. Well, if he was that desperate, then yes.
Jack says that he never remembers his dreams and then proceeds to tell his psychiatrist about one of them. He has kept his sexuality from one of his friends and yet suddenly starts telling her about it as if she had always known.
I am not sure whether this description has much literary merit: She shone like an ingot in the banklike majesty of this room; the light outside had just faded, and the gold bead curtains came to life, strafed by the electric lights projected up onto them.
“It seems funny just to say hi in this room,” I said. “It feels like we should be hammering out the Treaty of Versailles or something.”
There’s an odd spelling mistake on p. 85 where a joss stick is called a ‘doss’ stick. Maybe some sort of Freudian slip thinking of hippies.
I have to look up ‘pseudopod’ on p. 188 and was none the wiser. Also axonometric.
There’s pretentious language: a ship in a bottle is described as being in a ‘vitrine’.
And what is this talk of ‘days in purgatory?’ Years, surely.
I really got annoyed in the second half of the book, where it changes narrators, and Will says to himself ‘thought to self – that is a good idea for a story’ – sometimes three times on the same page.
There is some insight into full body organisms which only a gay man like the author, certainly not straight Will, could know about: In marriage I’d had a mouth for kissing and a penis for intercourse and ears to be whispered into, but now in concubinage my whole body had come alive and was glowing and yearning for more……Alex’s father might be a dynamic lawyer, but he obviously had a body that was 90 percent numb below the neck. I could tell how insensitive it was; I’d seen him at the Larchmont Yacht Club in a swimsuit. He could have lost a leg to a shark and felt nothing. Body armoring. A Charlottesville friend of mine, Edith, who was seeing a shrink, a follower of Wilhelm Reich, talked about “body armoring” all the time. The theory was that you hid your feelings and they got lodged in your muscles—which must have been why my shoulders ached. Edith had said that when her shrink manipulated her muscles, he would release the pain stored in them and she would sob. Pia never made me cry, but she did awaken me, unlock all those emotions….. (Or is this a clunky stereotype – men are less in touch with their bodies than women?)
The adultery guilt is well told – going to confession to a deaf priest, getting crabs and trying to find an excuse in case you’ve passed it on to your wife.
I just loved hearing of the fear straight men have in locker rooms: One guy at work started lifting weights and wearing his shirts tapered. We never let up on him. He admitted that he was expecting women to flirt with him now that he’d gotten in shape, but as he told us red-faced a month later, after many drinks, his only true admirers were homos at the gym. He couldn’t change into his shorts in the locker room without first wrapping a towel around his waist because these two persistent fairies kept buzzing around him, hoping for a peep at his peter.
“Let ’em see it,” we drunkenly shouted. “Then they’ll lose interest!”
“Fuck you!” he bellowed. “I’d never shake them. Not after they saw what a real man was made of.”
The old gay man’s contempt for gaylib rings true to that generation.
I agreed with the sentiment that straight men become effeminised on marrying – the women choose the wallpaper.
I liked the idea that Pia’s brains were the size of golfballs.
Also the difference in the way gay and straight split up: “That shows what bad heterosexual values you both have.”
“Straight people, as soon as they’ve broken up, it’s off with their heads.”
“We stay friends. Why invest so much energy and time in another person and then just cut him out of your life forever? That’s the nasty, brutish way straights behave.”
“But it doesn’t mean anything to you gay guys—it’s all just a joke for you.”
“Not a joke,” Jack insisted. “We’ve invested so much—” “Invested! But you’re defending your investments like a dry goods merchant.”
“And why do you straights gladly throw over everything you’ve achieved?”
“Love,” I said, “isn’t an achievement. It’s like a sonata. Once you’ve finished playing it, nothing remains. Not even sounds in the air.”
“There are marks on the page someone else can follow,” he said.
And the gay man who admits that he is ageing and than there is more to life than playing the stud: He was always expecting his real life to begin in another year or two. He hadn’t worked out the details, but he vaguely hoped that suddenly he’d be doing different, better work and living in another city far away with new, superior people, even a perfect lover. Strangely enough, when he pictured that lover, he was an older man, not his type at all but someone who might be a lively companion. When he wasn’t in heat or bored or afraid to be alone, he deplored his relentless sex drive. He started to do volunteer work for St. Luke’s in the Village; they provided free shelter for the local bums, but they needed someone to stay awake and supervise the men lest they steal from one another. One night every two weeks Jack would sit on top of a ladder and survey the loud, sleeping men, or he’d patrol the aisles between the beds. He thought he was no better than they were, except that his addiction was more or less compatible with holding down a job.
He liked the idea of volunteering and doing charity work. He enjoyed going to benefits for the church. He recognized that he had a natural gift for getting along with old rich ladies. He thought they were cute, and even a very grand doyenne of society never intimidated him. He started beaming the minute they began talking together, and he would touch her elbow or even her waist. A few drew back in horror, but most of them liked his physical warmth. He could be very soothing. No one quite knew who he was, but he fell into that vague category of “extra men,” those creatures with good manners, nice clothes, respectable jobs, and no obvious moral flaws. They could be counted on to fill out a table or cut in at a dance. Husbands trusted their wives to them for a night out at the opera or an outing to the Village in search of antiques. Everyone assumed that most of the extra men above a certain age were gay or pathologically single, but no one wanted to talk about these drawbacks too openly. For one thing, it was very agreeable for a sexagenarian lady to have a handsome, well-groomed younger man flirt with her—why dispel that pleasant mystery?
This, from Will, is true and needs to be told: “I hate the way Europeans think that puritanism explains everything about America. Anyway, what they mean is prudish, not puritanical. There’s no reason to imagine that the puritans were that prudish. I’d like to write a pamphlet in praise of puritanism that would be handed out on every plane bound for America and would explain that it was the puritans who thought up universal free and compulsory education and prison reform and abolitionism.”
The best quotation of all: “At your age it’s hard to believe, but you’ll find out that in the end that’s all anyone has, family.”
Palmer said, “That’s the most depressing thing you’ve ever said.”
And who gets STDS? Not who you think.
“I just love musicals. I identify with the waitress in The Most Happy Fella. Oh my feet, my poor feet.”
“She knew what I wanted and apparently wasn’t afraid of it”
“Isn’t it strange how heterosexuals see competition and rivals everywhere?”
“excessively pliable”, “a ‘nice’ boy who knew how to please others”
“a Princeton luster”
“with a woman you could have a real relationship conducted in the sunlight, whereas this homo thing was just slithering around in the shadows”
“They’d throw it over one shoulder and burp it and weep.”
“this blend of patchouli and boy mud was the most intoxicating scent, the true smell of modernity”
“hold my cock at the base like a throttled child, and to lick the head with thorough care, almost (to change the image) as if it were a doll’s head that she was painting with her tongue, determined to cover every last centimetre”.
“[the] beat movement was just winding down and the hippies were emerging”—a time when “[knowing] that someone was queer could place him at your mercy and, if you blabbed about it, could cost him his job.”
“I’d come back to the Northern Review after many years away, and even the old people on the staff were too young to have ever known me …. Someone—maybe it was me—had killed two young men …..
Dr. Adams lowered herself into the bathysphere, the better to be laved by the unconscious. When she reemerged, her mouth smoking, she said, “I think the two young dead men in this dream are you and Will. It’s your younger, neurotic selves who are dying off to be replaced by—who knows? It’s a hopeful dream.
His ribs were as visible as hands around a cup.”
“I’d rather come back with a few transcendent memories than an album of snapshots.”